Drunken Phone Calls Never Work Out

so... just friends... that should work out.

sigh. There goes another.

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On another note, I'm not trying to sound arrogant or anything, but I've realised something about myself.

I know all these things about attracting the opposite sex. Hell, I've even been taught how to be a player, but you know, I've not once done any of those things. I can read emotions okay, I guess, not a pro, but I get the gist of their feelings.

And you know why I've never done anything like that? It's because I'm ugly, for the most part. That contributes to the fact that it probably wouldn't work. But also because I've been conditioned to expect true love. Doesn't matter how cynical I've become of movies, because I'm a drama student, I still think that true love exists, because I read so many books that portray it, and I watch so many movies that also portray it.

It's like I'm not taking advantage of whatever it is that I could do. I'm just waiting.

God, waiting sucks. But still, I believe in the time that it will come true.

Someone want to give me a reality check, please?