Pocketful

Hmm....

Over the past week, I've heard of three different relationships with problems. I have no idea what that bodes for me, but I guess I'll take whatever is thrown at me.

I don't understand how I come to become the person to hear all of this... is it because I listen?

In all honesty, I have no experience in this field; never been in that situation, never had a girlfriend, so it seems like the advice I give is a bit redundant. It's not like I'm the best person to be asking when it comes to such things, but somehow or other, I'm used to having to deal with it, and that just seems to attract people to pour their hearts out to me.

I don't know...

On another note, I feel completely lost in life. At the moment, I feel as if my life is not headed anywhere fast. I'm failing to find motivation to do any of my uni assignments, and in turn, I am failing more than half my subjects. I don't want to have to repeat, but at the same time, I honestly cannot bring myself to do those assignments. I usually get to the point where it is way overdue before I even think about not doing the assignment at all, but right now, from the get go, I can't be fucked doing those assignments. Perhaps I should see a psychologist about it, but you see, my theory of myself is that I will never be free of a psychologist if I go see one, so it's better that I don't and just take my insanity with good stride.

I do feel lost. Perhaps this is my cry for help, but what I really need is probably professional help, and I'd never agree to that; I'm too lazy and proud.